~Special Ornaments~

We've started collecting ornaments this year for our first baby and Ava Noel, and we will continue to do so each and every year in their memory! Eventually... maybe next year, I plan to have a tree dedicated to the babies ornaments, and I'm sure at first it'll be a "baby-sized" tree. I'm actually on the look out for a smaller artificial "white" tree! Anybody seen any?

That first ornament shown in the picture above is one that Mugi and I found last night while doing our run for the last round of Christmas gifts. It was in one of those lil' seasonal kiosks in the middle of the mall with just ornaments. I think we both glanced at it at the same time and we knew it was a must have to commemorate Ava's first Christmas in Heaven. It's actually the 2nd Christmas if you go by the fact she was born premature in October (06), rather than on her estimated due date in January (07), but I still consider this to be the first Christmas. I just think this is so darling and it makes me smile to look at it.

And here's a sweet Snowbabies stocking ...

My parents have collected Snowbabies for my niece since she was 3, so I had to get one of these for my girlie too!

I still can't believe that this is all we get. This is what celebrating Christmas with our babes amounts to. All we have are ornaments to gaze. I'm glad that we can buy these precious momentos, yet I'm sad and I'm mad because that's all it'll EVER be. I'm dealing better with my emotions this year, and I suppose it will get easier as the years go forward, but I don't know... I'm so "homesick" for my babies. I hope God hugs them extra tightly this year and showers them with these tears from earth as heavenly kisses!

Here's a picture with two more very special ornaments ...

The first porcelain angel was made by a wonderful lady who goes to our church, and she gave it to us last Christmas along with a glass "NOEL" candle votive. I was sooo touched by this woman's thoughtfulness! The second pewter one, "Merry Christmas From Heaven", I found locally at a country/primitive gift shop a few weeks ago. Tears welled up as I read this and the beautiful poem which accompanied this in the box. I'd like to add the poem here, but since it is copyrighted and I don't have permission from the author himself, I'll direct you to the site and you can read the poem there at - http://www.merrychristmasfromheaven.com/ -


If there is ONE lesson or good thing to be gained from losing my babies, it is that I am no longer afraid or scared of dying... ever! I know that I have my angels looking over me, and that whenever I am called to my eternal home, I have so much more to look forward to! This poem reminds me of that and now with this ornament, I will be reminded every year.

Merry Christmas to our two dear lil' ones, Baby Amu and Ava Noel!

We love you and miss you so much!